12 days ago a friend challenged me to be sober.
In all honesty, I’ve never had an extreme or addictive personality, but I was definitely throwing back the wine like it was no big deal for the last, ohhh, as long as I can remember. A glass here and a glass there, somehow turned into a glass or 2…
Thank you for your valuable insight & perspective, TP.
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I make them. Even @ the age of 35. I’m not proud of them, but they are part of my learning process. So I try to take them in stride with my head held high. I pray to God that I remain aware enough of my thoughts and actions to not repeat past mistakes, but I’m realistic enough to even know that is unrealistic. So maybe I can learn a better way for a new outcome if the occasion arises that I repeat a mistake. At least by changing one shred of my wrong doing, I can learn a newer lesson. Always learning. Always evolving. Always growing. Anyways, that’s how I fill up with compassion, acceptance, understanding, love, kindness, etc..
I want to beg you, as much as I can, to be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.
Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
- Rainer Maria Rilke
The upside to the crazy.
You get sad. You get angry. You cry.
And then you take that shiz, and you channel it into something, and come out on the other side, and you realize you dont need to take everything so serious. Gahhh.
And the next thing you know, your laughing and thinking to yourself ”Ahhhh, whatever…”
And you become that girl that drives everyone crazy cause you cant make up your mind.
And you realize, that’s ok too.